I've been thinking of my future a lot lately. The whole thing with me moving out
of the house a lot earlier then i thought really speeded things up. I suddenly realised i'm
going to live on my own. I know that sounds rediculous, since thats what it was all about in
the first place. It's just that it's just getting to me now.

I was just getting the trash outside and i began to think how insecure the whole idea gets me.
I'm leaving my parents and my two sisters, all my preschool friends i suddenly seem to bond with
and even the room i'm sitting in right now. It's all going to be gone. And i know i'm going to get a whole
house for myself in return, a place to call my own and all new friends.

It's all i ever dreamed off, but i guess with the whole me having a relationship, new friends and all these new and insecure things, i'm not sure if i'm ready for my own place. But when i talked to my boyfriend he calmed me a lot by promising he'll be there for me trough the whole thing. So that really gave me courage again to just do it.

But of course thats not just the only thing about my future which is on my mind, but thats too much to bug you guys with.

Yay i'm gonna be a man soon....yup....a real man